hi every one it been so long i have not write anything to here, quite busy too, so well take care guys....
♥ I love you, Why can't i move on?
Wednesday, May 26, 2010 at 7:38 AM
it been 4 week of working, so far so good, everyone treating me good, and the time of healing myself getting well. the feeling of her is not tt strong anymore.... thinking of all the past i done is jus stupid, after the break up, all the burden is out of my mind, lack of cash and in the end , the helping hand is just my family no other den that. thinking of a year back den, asking myself "why ". i think i noe why now, the love poision i take is too much...... i can say no one can be trusted..... even ur gf or bf.... it just a closer stranger only... when u need help , they will run off..... u cant see them, cos they will be on another ger or another boi... left u alone to dead. this world is curl but den life goes on..... most of all i jus love my family.....
♥ I love you, Why can't i move on?
Saturday, May 22, 2010 at 7:41 AM
tue 18 may 2010, i finally tok to her but den i must open my heart jus to forgive and forget. it very hard to do that when a love one or a close one actually betray u. i donno y i jus forget it....
after i left the church, i went to my car and drove off with tear...... and i start to buzz my music loud.
could i really forgive her???? it a big Question to me........ lots of ppl heard my story , telling me that im doing the rite way........
♥ I love you, Why can't i move on?
Saturday, April 17, 2010 at 11:50 PM
well today as ppl told me to go down to church , well i had a feeling not go down and ya i did go nor.
dressing myself jus like working and ya went down to the church itself.
well saw her and i donno wat feeling i had but den it bad and i don feel like toking to her, will make me vomit my blood out of my body. so just save my breath.
well in the end she come toward me and say hi but den actually i don wanna reply her and ya i did said hi to her. in my heart it so hateful and i just chills myself not to do anything silly. it good to hear ppl saying me changed alots and slim down lots too whahahah... well a break will slim ppl down of cos .....
♥ I love you, Why can't i move on?
Sunday, April 11, 2010 at 7:43 AM
it been a months of breaking up, but yet i still thinking abt her, y i donno y really....
i tell her not to call me cos i don wan my tear to drop and u noe wat she scold me again... i donno how come she become like tt, watever i do she also like tt, the anger of her father...
haiz after the enjoy of the flying kite, i still rmb of my child hood......
well sunday nothing to do so write a dairy of myself and without her, i still rmb jus for her nonsence i hiting and punching myself really, i donno she still rmb ?????
haiz watever i do she will say touched but den no action one.......
♥ I love you, Why can't i move on?
Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 6:20 AM
well she did post her photo to facebook, i really donno how she feel but den i noe something, she changed to bad to worse. i think is my fault but den all is her own doing making it to herself...
i can say that after saw all her photo , make me look sad but den life carry on and ya wish her all the best....
♥ I love you, Why can't i move on?
at 1:42 AM
well, she called me midnight around 2.30am while i making a video of my friend outing to prawning. and den donno wat she wan. really soft voice making me soft heart again. really donno she really wanted.
i really very confuse that night and i really cried over the phone..... useless me